Roomate issues

Sometimes, I don't understand God.

My roomate and I, we started out as best friends and now we are almost completely the opposite. It's heart-wrenching.

We had a screaming row this morning, and I have never had one of those in my entire life. It was honestly the worst experience... that I am even capable of that much rage, screaming at her things I completely regret and some things I can't even remember. It was that bad.

I guess I stretch the best-friends "no boundaries" thing too much. I mean, of course now I see that, but not when I was in the middle of my semester, thinking everything was peachy keen, besides me knowing that my keyboard typing is incessant and annoying. And all of this rage just builds up, without me knowing, until this morning at 5:30 when I accidentally woke her up. But it wasn't me being inconsiderate, I was in horrible pain and making "pain noises" or whatever, and honestly wasn't thinking about McKenzie or anyone else, just the intense pain going on in my legs! I mean, come on. She completely unloads on me after deliberately trying to piss me off, turning on all the lights at 6 am, banging boxes around, making an all around disturbance until I finally give up and ask her what the heck is going on... and she proceeds to tell me, her face red and positively SCREAMING, that I am completely inconsiderate for having been in pain and moaning, when she had an exam this morning at 8:30, which I had no idea about. I told her that maybe if I had two brains, one could encompass the pain in my legs and the other could be considerate and force me off the bunk bed and out of the room. She seriously said, I don't care, you could have left the room and moaned down the hall. Uhhh...whatev.

Basically she made it clear that I'm a bad roomate, or simply that the both of us don't work together, which I think we both knew from the beginning. But seriously... I just couldn't fathom anyone being that incredibly pissed off (especially at me) ever. It stinks that God allows these emotions... but maybe they're good also.

My friend Denise is amazing, and I have such other amazing friends who can hold me accountable instead of just criticizing me. Which is what everyone needs, especially Christians.

I need to just pray for peace and patience about the whole situation and find some scripture to define it.